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You’re going to be a big sister!

I moved to Florida nine months ago in the midst of COVID 19. My state was on total lockdown and being a single mom of a two-year-old, I needed to work. My parents and siblings live in Florida and with their encouragement, I made the move with my daughter. I moved in with my parents and I was happy to immediately find a good position at a resort. Used to living on my own, I was also happy to find a beautiful apartment close to my parent’s home so my mom could watch my daughter while I worked. Everything seemed perfect. I began dating a coworker and it was not long before we were seeing each other on a regular basis. I had been so busy focusing on getting settled, I had not been focused on finding a new doctor so I could get a new birth control prescription. I was not too worried about it because my cycles rarely came anymore as I was on continuous birth control due to painful cycles. I began to notice I was feeling sick in the mornings and began gaining weight. A friend at work suggested I take a pregnancy test. I took her advice and it was positive. I told the man I was seeing and he said he would pay for an abortion. This was not the time with me just getting settled, to have another child. Abortion was the answer and I thought a pill abortion would be the easiest way to go. The only thing that concerned me was that I already had multiple abortions in my past which I still felt a lot of guilt over. My family did not even know. I shared with my friend about the previous abortions I had and how I felt
about them. She told me about a mobile unit pregnancy center that she had used. She said their services were free and they really helped her when she was considering aborting her one-year-old. I called Solutions Mobile Unit and was able to get an appointment right away. When I arrived at my appointment, the lady who was helping me said she would be asking a lot of questions and encouraged me to be honest so I could receive the best help possible. One of the questions she asked was if I had an abortion in the past. My first impulse was to lie to her, but she saw me hesitate and gently told me it was okay, she had had an abortion herself. I felt so relieved when she said that and shared with her about my past abortions. She was so understanding that I began to cry. When we did the sonogram, it confirmed I was nine weeks. I could see a child. I knew I could not go through another abortion again. After the sonogram, my advocate and I laid out a plan on paper. I knew my family would be supportive, I knew I could financially support another child and I realized I could not take the life of my daughter’s
brother or sister. How could I ever look at her again knowing I took away her opportunity to be a big sister?

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